freedom writer

A young woman after God's own heart. Yep, that's what I aspire to be.
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  • dishonor on your whole family
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So, I’m compiling a list of what I would look for in a future partner, LOL. Here’s what I have so far…

1. Someone who is wholeheartedly devoted to God, so when I’m down in my spiritual walk, they can help lift me up.

2. Someone who’s not superficial or shallow.

3. Someone who is extremely honest with me, especially about his struggles. You know, I want to be with a man who’s comfortable with telling me when he’s struggling with something, even like lust, so we can pray about it together.

4. Someone who is wise and loves reading deeper into God’s word.

5. Someone who is funny and chill.. you know, has a balance between being serious and playful.

6. Someone who is kind, affectionate, compassionate, has a heart for others.

…. LOOKS LIKE I’M GOING TO MARRY JESUS, GUYS. YAYAYAYAY.. haha :)

Woah, haven’t been on tumblr in a while. Not having internet turned into an unintentional fast, LOLOLOL.

During my time off, I grew alot closer to God in many areas of my life. Try not going on tumblr for a month. It may do the same for you. You really learn what you can and can’t live without.. tumblr’s on the can list, LOL.

365.

letterstomydarling:

My dearly loved, wonderfully created husband,

It’s been a year. 365 days. 8760 hours.

It’s been a year since the yearnings of my heart drove me to begin writing to you three hundred and sixty-five days ago. A year since God called me to begin writing publicly, though I had neither talent nor eloquence. A year where I’ve experienced both the highest elation and the deepest despair. A year where God has been simultaneously distant and near, silent yet ever-present, vocal yet a whisper of the wind.

It’s been a year since the biggest ache on my heart was the absence of you. A year of God utterly transforming my mind, heart and soul to abandon all my dreams to Him. A year of recognizing that my deepest aches and desires were actually for Him and Him alone - my jealous and almighty God - and not for any human being. A year of learning that to love you one day means loving Him every day, whether or not you walk alongside me.

It’s been a year of deep hunger and thirst for His presence and His love. A year of experiencing the riches of His glory through His beautiful and precious Word. A year of seeking to understand Him through “right” theology and hermeneutics, but realizing that knowledge without true understanding is useless. A year of many tears spilt while on my knees, grasping on the hem of His robe and begging Him for healing.

This is a year of great change.

My life and these letters stand as a testament to His transformative power. I am not the person I was a year ago, my dear husband. I don’t know what He has done - but “the old has gone, the new is here!”

I am so greatly in love with my Saviour, my redeemer, my soulmate and my friend. Today, I choose to celebrate the One who deserves all glory and praise - my God who is perfect Love. He is the one who has loved me despite my unfaithfulness and sin, calling me home when I have gone astray. He created me and chooses me for His own.

My cherished one, trust in His unfailing love and His everlasting mercies. Yes, sometimes I am impatient to experience God with you, pouring over His Word and savouring life together - but I know that His plan is good. In every season, grasp on His hem, cling to His everlasting covenants and wrestle with permeated sin. Delight in His love. Savour and taste His goodness. Celebrate His love.

I miss you and love you greatly, dearest stranger and friend.

your future wife

Whenever I want to start homework

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  • One of my favourite stories from the Bible is when the people of Israel leave Egypt and pursue the Promised Land. They were stuck in their past, their “Egypt” if you will, for so long, and when God brought them out, they were still complaining and pining for their old lifestyle and old ways. After leaving Egypt, they had a hole in their heart that only God could fix, but they didn’t know it, so they attempted to fill it with idols and other such things. In short, they were replacing God with an imitation, a fake, something that didn’t deserve the highest priority in their hearts that they were giving it. To me, that part is kind of sad, but what I love about the story still is that even though they were so stubborn and reverted to their old ways so many times, God never stopped pursuing them. He never stopped revealing to them signs of His love, His power, and His majesty. That, my friends, is simply beautiful to me.

Dear you,

yes you. For all those who self-mutilate, have an eating disorder, or inflict any other sort of physical, mental, emotionalor spiritual pain on themselves, read this. It’s one of my favourite verses in the entire Bible.

Isaiah 53:5 - “But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was on him, and by his wounds we are healed.”

See that? We are healed by HIS wounds. No amount of pain, physical or mental, which we inflict upon ourselves will bring us peace in our situation or make us feel any better either. Yes, times may be tough, and this may provide a temporary release, but it is only by Christ’s wounds that we are healed. His wounds, not ours. The only wound that we should be willing to accept is the wound that Christ suffered on the cross in order to bring us the peace that we very much need in our lives. Christ took all the wounds, so you wouldn’t have to! He never intended for you to harm yourself or live in pain, He intended for you to live a life of peace. How amazing is that? So, next time you think about wounding yourself, physically or emotionally, I pray you remember this.

God is revealing a deeper layer of His word to me… Loving it so much!